Today was pretty low-key. The usual: workout (at gym – 3 miles on treadmill + 30 mins elip + abs + stretch), and work from home. I don’t really enjoy working at home but I don’t have an actual employer for this project really so no work space. BOO! I just feel so isolated. I live by myself so on days I work from home I don’t speak at all except if I call someone on the phone. Super lonely. But my other project I have a work space for and set hours! YAh!
I’m not going to lie. It was a struggle to come up with some things that make me happy today. My grandma is really sick (well more than sick, she has a couple of days to live) so I’m really on edge waiting for that phone call saying she died and book your airline tickets home. We knew this was coming. She is 91 years old and has been fighting cancer for over six years. I am happy I’ve had so many years to know her. All my grandparents were pretty involved with raising me and my sister so I have many many happy memories. But it is still hard. And I don’t do well with waiting and unsettled plans. I just want to know when I’ll have to go home. I am sad I can’t be there with my family. It is just mentally exhausting to have so many different emotions (happiness of the memories, scared for what my family will do without her, sad that there won’t be new memories, anxiety that I’ll have to fly home with very little time to plan and pack). But this is about focusing on the happy things. I plan to do a post on the happy memories that are carrying me through this unhappy time but for now I am going to focus on the trivial things that make me happy.
1. Whole Foods Roasted Vegetable Pasta Sauce. This sauce is really good. Actually pasta sauce in general is amazing. Last night I needed comfort food. For me that is pasta and pasta sauce with cheese. So I added some vegetables, canned clams (yup, they are good and lots of iron!) and called it a meal.
2. Post-it notes. Seriously. They are amazing! After working from home for two days on two new projects I have a zillion post-its on my desk.
3. My first nectarine of the season! I rarely by fruit and vegetables if they aren’t in season just because I am always disappointed in their taste. It makes that first bite after waiting a year so so much better!
4. NPR. Yes I’m a National Public Radio junkie. I listen to it almost everyday, especially when I’m working in my lonely apartment.
Alright. That is all I can do for happiness tonight. But just reflecting on those little things made me feel much better.
Enjoy your Friday,